The timestamp attached to this post is a bit deceptive; I’ve actually been up since 5am. And that’s how my week’s been, folks, with the same story for the week before. It’s not generic “morningsomonia”:http://juniorbird.com/archive/000047.php, and it’s not, remarkably, a generic worry about how much I have to get done. Instead, I’ve woken up early thinking _specific_ thoughts about _specific_ projects, consumed by _specific_ worries about _specific_ deliverables. Which sucks, because, let’s face it, when you wake up at 5am and realize that Godiva Chocolates might be a good comparable for doing a valuation of Peet’s Coffee, there’s nothing that will get that idea out of your head other than logging onto “OneSource”:http://www.onesource.com/ and grabbing Godiva’s financials. And, when you discover that Godiva is really a subsidiary of Campbell’s Soup, well, there’s no getting back to sleep.
I’ll admit, I thought I had gotten rid of this problem by following the cult of “Getting Things Done”:http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0142000280/104-3431047-1819920?v=glance&n=283155&v=glance. Following the simple and clear advice in this book, I’ve reduced the administrativa to reflex and habit, leaving my mind time to churn itself about on topics of real importance or involving real creativity, rather than remembering what meetings I have today. I can only imagine that this strategy has backfired and that my brain has been so freed of dealing with everyday cares that now I can actually think the big ideas that will keep me up at night. Or, in this case, wake me up in the morning.
It’s probably the stress, too. My feasibility project took over my life, as it did everyone’s life in our class, then we missed the bonus points early-turn-in date and got to (had to?) work on it another week, trying desperately to get the extra points back. We turned in the project on Tuesday and I was still amped Wednesday thinking about it. Then there’s the Advertisng and Promotions Management presentation on Monday, on a paper that doesn’t yet exist and which is due Wednesday, competing with the large, research-heavy Valuations project (involving Peet’s, mentioned above) due Thursday, and also with the presentation on the Feasibility report on Wednesday. Plus, you know, the credit card company expects to be paid and all, and it’s time to change Junior’s cage.
So there’s a lot of ideas to think about here. Now I just need to figure out how to not think about them. Shut up, brain, and go back to sleep!